I’ve been having a bad time in the past month.
I feel tired. Things don’t seem to be moving — wait, they AREN’T moving at all. And it’s entirely my responsibility — I’m avoiding all the things I said I would do, and the things I know I need to do.
I’m slacking off yet I feel tired. (How do you get tired when you’re not working hard?)
All the feelings of being clear have vanished, and when I look at the notes I wrote for myself, I can’t identify with the person who wrote it. It feels like I’m back at square one, and I’m making the same mistake as before. Again.
Welcome to the Jungle of Change. Or whatever dark miserable place you dislike.
When things are working and getting better, it’s easy to feel good. When we’re rocking it and we’re our better self, anything looks possible.
But when things go to hell, everything looks like hell — for me, anyway.
And it always feels so hard to get out: because a poor situation means poor thinking means poor state means poor actions, and the cycle continues, no matter which point you start at.
When I’m like this it’s easy to get caught up in all the things that don’t really matter.
- Looking at how well others are doing. Feeling envious. Feeling hopeless. Feeling alone.
- Chasing strategies and tactics. There is an infinite supply of people who will want to sell us these.
- Looking at equipment and tools to buy.
- Constantly trying to affirm how good (we think) we are. Trying to get others to tell us how good we are.
- Worrying about how we are compared to other people. Worry about how we look doing it.
- Engaging in fearful thinking.
- Trying to explain away our failures and mediocrity with more nonsense.
I used to give up at this point. Or chase my own tail without knowing it. No more.
This isn’t the first time, and it won’t be the last. Bad habits return, and sometimes life happens. But thankfully I’ve dug myself out of it before, so I have no excuses not to give it a go.
…for me anyway.
It’s time to refocus on the basics: sleep, diet, the right routines (especially my “morning take-off”). Let those sink in and work their magic. That’s it. The rest usually follows.
If you’re caught in the same crap, you’re welcome to try my solution. I guarantee it works… for me. But then again I’m not the only one preaching the benefits of the above, so it can likely work for you. 😀
This is the only way I know how to recover the most precious two resources in life: time and energy.
I’ll be back.